Monday, June 23, 2008

So, today's another week

So today kind of sucked. I hadn't blown it quite as much as I had last week, but I still didn't really watch what I ate at all, so I went up this week. I started the next level of the Couch to 5K but towards the end my legs just would not move any more and I almost sat down on the sidewalk right there. I'm just frustrated with myself.

But today is a different day. I'm pretty sure I'm going to do well this week. I'm going to actually try this week. What a novel idea.

Okay, other things, I guess. Last week, I was incredibly stressed out. I'm a pretty stressed out person in general, but for some reason it never really effects my sleep. So if I'm stressed out enough to be tired, you know it has to be bad. I was literally waking up every hour and a half or so with my heart racing. The reason why I was stressed out so much is that I'm in the midst of trying to apply to grad school. I'm definitely not pinning all my hopes on getting into grad school, and it won't be the end of the world, and that's the assumption I'm working on, and I'll go through my days, being stressed about getting into grad school but really not too bad. I mean, I don't feel stressed.

But boom, as soon as my head hits the pillow, racing heart and nightmares galore. I had an interview at the school last week. In case I haven't mentioned, I live about twenty miles outside of Boston and the school I'm hoping to get into is in Boston. As you may have also heard, the Celtics are the best team in the NBA. To celebrate this fact, Boston had a huge parade. Right at exactly the time I was having my interview. The only way to reach this school is through public transportation, which, of course, was packed. I had to walk a bit of a distance because the parking lot at the subway station was full, which normally wouldn't be a huge deal if I were wearing sensible shoes. But I was not wearing sensible shoes, I was wearing shoes that I bought at Kohls at 10:15 the night before when I had my obligatory "Oh shit, I have nothing to wear to this interview dealy!" moment. So, at the end of the day, even though I probably walked less than a mile, total, my feet looked like they had tumors on them. The blisters were so bad that I couldn't even think about putting on socks the next day, never mind workout sneakers.

To top it off, I couldn't even stay and watch the parade, because a. I was so tired from the constant nightmares, and b. I couldn't stand to be in those shoes a moment longer, and I didn't think being barefoot on the streets of Boston in a crowd of a couple of thousand was a good idea.

I didn't have the time on Thursday (the day of the interview) to work out, and Friday, I just couldn't even think of doing anything, never mind going out and running. But as stated, today is a new day and week. I didn't have nightmares the night before, and I did go out and run, though I wasn't entirely successful in what I had planned to do. So, today's another week.


Crabby McSlacker said...

My goodness, an important interview to get to with a parade in the way sounds exactly like my worst nightmare! (Well, if it was one of my actual nightmares I'd arrive at the interview wearing no blouse for some reason). But anyway, sounds like quite an ordeal.

Hope you figure out what's going on with all the nighttime stress and have a much better week!

MizFit said...

I'm going to actually try this week. ----

you can DO it.

because there's no TRYing only DOing---yes?

(hang in there)


Fooled said...

Well, no wonder why I am having nightmares! I just lived through one.

I'm kind of the opinion that in being healthy, trying is kind of the same as doing. If I eat the whole bag of cookies and skip several workouts in a row, that's not trying. My motto for this is "As long as I keep trying, I am not failing." If I try to eat right and exercise, only good can happen, and even if I got a while on a plateau, at least I know I'm doing the right things. If I do all the right things to the letter and I'm still on the plateau, well, I'm only setting myself up for disappointment.

Red said...

Oh, man.

This is why I never sleep. Good luck.

MizFit said...

happy HUMP DAY.

hows the week so far? better?